I always look back at the year in retrospective during this time of the year, -- what have I gone through that has made me change for the better or worse, which I accept is part of my journey and growth.
I've been very gentle on my shortcomings, and loving myself more. Sounds pretty weird but nobody is gonna love you like you love yourself. Bahahaha. I've heard it repeatedly for the past few years that I have come to believe that we have got to start loving ourselves, forgiving ourselves and accepting ourselves and be at peace within. It starts with us.
All that matters is love. Love yourself, love others, love more.
Be humble, grateful. Do good. Be kind, generous. Emphatize.
Family matters. Make time for your loved ones always.
Most times we are so pre-occupied with ourselves and our issues that we forget that others have their battles to deal with that we may not even be aware of whether it's concerning their health, career or relationships. So I've tried to be a good friend to those in need yet at the same time drawing the line as to not get emotionally caught up in their lives.
I've been very honest to some who ask me for my advice yet this had gotten me into trouble as apparently people do not like to hear an honest viewpoint from you, instead if you sugarcoat things to make them feel better then they accept you more. So now I know that. I try to stay away from these people as my honesty is what makes me me. One less friend to deal with:)
I have also learned that not all close friends are really true friends. Which leads me to a heartbreak I had this year. One of my best friends who went on a holiday with me actually stole my wedding ring from the safe deposit box in the hotel room. Of course she denies it but I know better, coz only she and I knew the password to the safe.
To me, it wasn't about the ring but the fact that she picked that ring to hurt me and affect my relationship with my husband. She was defensive and had a nonchalant attitude about the whole ring issue, which is so out of character for her. If I had listened to the police officer maybe she would now be in jail in a foreign land. I've always helped her and I believe I have been a true friend to her and it just broke my heart that she hated me so much to stoop to doing that to me. I can't think of any reason. If it was money she could have asked me for it. Money you can earn but betrayal of a 15-year friendship is one that makes you wonder as to why people do the things they do.
One good friend gone but I have met a few new ones this year who have added meaning to my life.
One understands my every battle over the recent tragedies I have undergone, and chooses to highlight the positive traits and strength that he sees in me, which in turn has made me feel special and want to get healthy once more to do all that I know I'm capable of. I need to have a goal to look forward to.
Another new friend I met this year who is more attuned to healing works, has been guiding me on how to heal myself within so the cancer can be in remission. It's strange how the universe works in bringing people in your life and then removing those that no longer play a part in your life. So many lessons learnt along the way. Even the bad relationships teach you something good.
I have observed how some people forget that life is short and that you must make the most of it now. They work very hard, save a lot for the future, and in the process have made money the commodity that drives them forgetting that all that money is gonna be left behind when they die.
Save sufficient for the future, yes, but not scrimp on those you love and on yourselves, so you can have the millions in your account,.. coz we all know that it will never be enough for the money hungry people. The richer you are, the more stingy you are! I have met people who haven't got much but they are so generous with others. And to me, that says so much that those who are calculative; I dont care if you have a few millions in your growing bank account but in my eyes you are poor in all that matters.
I am not perfect, never was and never will be, but I hope I inspire someone to think about stuff that they may have forgotten or taken for granted.
To all my readers, I wish you a happy and healthy new year! Go live life and be happy!
And thank you for your prayers and support:)
